Way down we go...
Druhá povídka v angličtině. Omlouvám se, že nepřidávám častěji, ale jednoduše není čas a teď jsem navíc ještě nachcípaná...
Way down we go...
Way down we go...
"You were too
dangerous... Too special..."
Yeah, she was so fucking dangerous that the team she was
part of, dropped her to the CIA. They did her so many fucking things she can't
even remember them anymore. It was purely instinct that get her out of there -
alive. And it was all over and over again - earn the trust of people she didn't
even trust anymore, do some shitty work because she was the only one perfect to
this job, ignore the tension in room or those... judgemental looks. So sick of this. So tired of this.
Her only connection to the old life was Roman. It wasn't
always perfect but it was something - this feeling she's alive, loved and not completely
alone. There were those looks like he was searching for something. Maybe her old-self.
When she was still his tough, adamant sister who stops at nothing and always
protects her brother. What a shame... Jane or Taylor or Alicia or Remi - or
whatever name they can come up with - didn't exist anymore. She wasn't that
person and all of them were hoping for impossible things.
How can even a person be the same after their memory was
erased? True - flashbacks came to her sometimes, mostly when she was spending
her time with Roman but...
"I am sorry you lost your sister but if I could go back
I would do it all so differently..." That was the true. She loved him -
first feeling after all those long, cold, sleepless nights. Apparently that
wasn't a thing Roman wanted to hear but she was honest with him. And sometimes
the looks he gave to her were so happy - that she is alive, that he has her
back again, that she said something her old-self would tell. From every touch,
every look or even a tone in his voice was visible how deep were his feelings
for her.
It was one night she has learned her love for Roman has no limits.
She was staying at Shepherd's place and he simply walked into her room, both
hands bandaged and lower lip slightly torn.
"What happened to you?"
"They didn't want me to get to you. So I fought my way
out but Shepherd appeared."
She carefully took his hand into hers. "You can't do
that."
"Because I could compromise you cover? Yeah, I know.
Sorry."
"No, because I don't want to lose you." He almost
looked at her like he didn't believe her. That hurt. "You can't put
yourself in danger. You are all I have left. I know you want your sister back,
your precious Remi - but I don't. If she was able to sacrifice her own brother
for success of a mission then I hope she never comes back."
He just took a deep breath and looked at her. And that was
it. Another of his frowns. "Remi would want to do her job. We are at war
that's bigger and more important that our lives." Why this again? Why did
it sound like anybody in this building hasn't a respect to human life?
"Ian, I won't lose you." A vision of him - dead or
deadly injured made her heart hurt. Jane remembered first time they met what
did he say to her with this expression on his face.
"Some things you just cannot control." He was
looking at their joined hands. Jane couldn't see into his mind but his
twitching fingers gave her more or less the answer. Roman... Roman was like her
more violent and impatient side. Even if she didn't remember much, she
definitely trusted her instinct - he is yours.
He had always been yours and you're his. You will never truly belong to another
man.
Jane didn't even reply, just get closer to him and when he
turned his head to her, she carefully kissed his lips. Just like touch of a
feather. "You have to be careful. You are the only thing that makes sense
to me right now in the whole world. I can't lose you or else I'll die."
He smiled so beautifully like that time she opened the
puzzle box. "I missed you so much. And I miss you every fucking second
you're not with me - with us - here."
"Yeah, everytime I am with the team I am truly scared
we'll run into you... "
He only whispered Don't
be, I can take care of myself before he kissed her deeply. Her hands slowly
moved behind his neck as she shifted herself in Roman's lap.
"I love you."
In your violence, I
have found tenderness...
In your devotion, I
have found love...
In your confidence, I
have found my world...
Jane knew it will get ugly at some point, but right now -
this moment with her brother was all that mattered. His arms around her as he
pulled Jane closer to him - as if she could soak into him so they would be
together as one forever.
"I know. I love you too. I will love you no matter
what."
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